When life slows down for a few minutes here and there, I ponder my kids and my parenting. When I was a very young mom, I thought I could “mold” my kids into perfect children. Well, almost twenty two years later I laugh about this lie that I believed. I also think about what I did well and my past mistakes in parenting. Will it make a difference in their lives?
Through good friends and their wisdom, lately I’ve been coming to terms with accepting my past mistakes. I now realize that I did the best I could at the time. I had never parented that age child under those circumstances, and I did what I thought was right. Would I do something different today? Probably but…I now know what I would have done today because of what I learned from my mistakes of the past. I want to acknowledge what happened and move on.
When we hold on to shame, it corrupts our relationships with ourself and others. I want to accept my past behavior and acknowledge it but I don’t want to believe shame’s lie. I want to live in today and help my kids do the same.
I know today’s post is rather heavy but sometimes if we can look at this kind stuff in our lives, it will make our tomorrow lighter. Can you relate?