The test results were negative…
I wasn’t selected…
My child yelled and slammed the door in my face…
My heart aches…
It aches with disappointment, and yet I have still hope.
I remind myself, “What do I know?” I know that the Lord has been faithful when I went through two years of infertility. How can I complain when I already have two children and yet I want more? Two years of waiting directed my eyes to Him.
I wanted to be selected, and I wasn’t.
I felt like a failure. So unworthy.
What now? I am reminded that the Lord told Joshua to take a stone from the river along with other men and build a memorial for His people so they would be reminded. He brought them. He guided them. He protected them.
Okay, so today when parenting gets hard, I remember.
I slow down and re-focus.
I think to where we were and where He has taken our family. The Lord has been so gracious in His gifts and His abundant love. I know that He knows my heart and He will provide.
Today, can I share some comfort with you and remind you to remember?
Just lovely, Jan. It can be so hard to step back when confronted with disappointment. Thank you for sharing words of comfort and offering the reminder to remember. I will take it very much to heart today.
Thank you, Lisa.
So true, Jan. And in my own life, I often think how when one door closes (and I feel disappointment) another door often opens. It’s just having the trust and faith to know that the other door is out there somewhere, waiting to be opened!
Thank you, Liz. The trick is to remember that.
Aw, Jan, I can feel your pain and your humility. We all go through disappointing and negative experiences but, sometimes, the pain is just as raw as the first time. Here’s hoping that today something wonderful will happen to counter-balance your first experience.
Lisa,
Your comment sure helps. Thanks.
j
I need frequent reminder to slow down and simply appreciate the journey and the moments. Thanks for this reminder in particular.
And you know something? It’s always helpful to hear other moms say “I understand.” That’s comforting.
Oh I love this post – made me really think about some trials I’ve been going through and why it’s important to pray and wait upon the Lord. Beautiful!
Thank you, Tess. I’m so glad. I felt the Lord nudge me to talk about some recent challenges.
Thank you for stopping by.
j
Touching. Beautiful. Thank you for sharing this.
Blessings..
Hi Tatyanna,
Do you have a nickname? I have to think how to spell your name every time I type it. 🙂
Thank you and I pray that you have a wonderful Mother’s day.
Sometimes it is so hard when our aches and disappointments seem so overwhelming in our eyes. It is hard to see God through our fog of grief. But those memorials God gives to us is such a great encouragement to cling to! Thanks, Jan. A sweet reminder today!
Thanks, Kate.
I so want my kids to look at His faithfulness, too.
j
Beautifully written Jan! Good reminders for both the big and little disappointments that come our way every day.
Thank you.
Tammy
Thank you. That’s a complement coming from you. 🙂
Loved your today’s post. I tweeted it.
j